It is what it is.
If I were to go back in time and secretly interview myself, my answers for how life would be 10 years from then are totally different from how life actually is today.
I distinctly remember being about 17 and dreaming about my life when I turned 25.
- Have moved out into an apartment at age 18
- Be married to my husband by 21
- Have a Bachelor’s Degree in Business by 20
- Have a Masters Degree in something
- Traveled to Italy/London
- Make over $80,000 through my own business or a desk job
- Live in Rancho Cucamonga (a really nice, expensive area) and ride the bike trail every day
- Have a huge house, two stories with a huge backyard and granite counter tops, furnished from Crate and Barrel
- Buy all the clothes, purses, decorations I could ever want whenever I want
Pretty much past that I wasn’t sure. But I was ABSOLUTELY SURE I:
- Didn’t want to be a teacher
- Didn’t want children
And over the years, my Pinterest Board reflected that. While in college, I entertained the idea of both and pinned things with a huge question mark next to all of them, thinking “That will never happen”.
At 25 years old, everything feels different, but in retrospect is just a slight variation of my dreams. Now, I am/have:
- Lived with my parents til 24
- Married to my high school sweetheart
- A small house (not in Rancho)
- A Bachelor’s in English, and am halfway through my Masters in Special Ed.
- A Special Ed. TEACHER. (Never would have guessed that, even as recently as four years ago!)
- NOT making $80,000 (darn)
- NOT ridden my bike
- NOT traveled to Italy or London 😦
Thinking that one of the two things I was SURE would never come to pass, now I am not so sure. How strange is it to be fully aware of the amount you have matured, and the things you think of differently? I can pinpoint where I changed, what changed, and why.
And I can certainly agree with my mother when she said,
I told you so.